I should have set my alarm to The Bangle's Manic Monday actually it would have probably put me in a better mood. I woke up not in the best mood due to stumbling on some photographs last night. I was going through some family photos last night attempting to put together a surprise for a family member. I forgot, in the box was a picture of me in the wedding dress that I never got to use. Not something a single thirty-five almost thirty-six year old wants to see.
I had the biggest grin on my face in the picture. I was so happy to be finally marrying the love of my life or so I thought. I will never forget the pain of having to pick up the dress four months after he called off the wedding. Thankfully my mum went with me and I only had to hold it together long enough to write out the check. The tears immediately started falling and I rushed out of the store leaving my mum to finish the rest. The dress hung in a closet until last summer when I finally got enough courage to get rid of it. Ironically, the dress burned in my car.
Since calling in sick wasn't an option I had to make my way to work. Apparently I wasn't the only one not thrilled about me going to work. Cappy rushed the gate as I was trying to leave. When I wouldn't let him out he started crying. Then he ran along side the fence trying to follow me to the garage; yelping and barking the entire time. My heart was just breaking, he has never been this bad before when I've gone to leave. I wanted to turn around and head back in the house and curl up on the couch with him.
Off to work I went instead. I was about five minutes from work and just to make the day even better I spotted a truck from my ex's work. Normally I wouldn't care but after the walk down memory lane last night, I wasn't in the mood for another reminder of my past. I am working so hard on moving forward and that includes forgetting the past. I thought I was a safe distance from the potential of running into him by working in Minnesota.
Work was a welcomed distraction. I was so happy to just have a normal drama and stress free day once I got there. Throwing myself into my work has always been a nice distraction. The day almost made a complete turn around. We had been very quiet. I had gotten it in my head that if we got out in time I could make it to the craft store to pick up yarn. I jinxed myself, customer's started rolling in twenty minutes before close.
Some how we managed only to get out five minutes late and I started the twenty-five minute drive to the craft store. I was trying my hardest to get there in enough time. I didn't want to be one of the annoying customers coming in at close. Especially since yarn isn't really an emergency item. I just didn't want to run out and needed more for my blanket. Next time I will be buying yarn from a store closer to home.
The day is now over and I'm ready to put it all behind me. None of it was life or death or things that I should have even let ruin my day. I need to some how work at not letting the little things bother me. Until then I guess I will have some interesting things to write about.